First
was my friend's use of the words "preference" and
"lifestyle." Preference
implies choice. If my being homosexual is my sexual "preference," it
means that at some point I was presented with all the alternatives, and I chose
to be gay. If I made that choice, I have to believe that everyone else is
presented with the same range of sexual choices, and chooses where he or she
will be most comfortable on that sexuality spectrum. I am almost 71 years old,
and am a "people-person," so I have known thousands of people
over my lifetime, but I have yet to meet one person who says that he or
she was presented those alternative sexualities, and chose to be either
gay or straight, homosexual or heterosexual. No one makes that choice; it is a
given. Whether there is a genetic predisposition toward homosexuality or
heterosexuality or not I don't know (I have my suspicions), but I do know that
I never chose to be gay, and I doubt that anyone else chose to be either
gay, straight, or whatever.
I
believe that there is a difference between one's sexual orientation and
one's sexual behavior, and I believe that most people recognize that
distinction. For example: Even the strictest, most strait-laced Christian would
contend that Jesus, the Apostle Paul. and Mother Teresa were heterosexual,
right? Those observers would bristle at the suggestion that either of the three
people we just mentioned was gay or homosexual, so by default they'd have to be
straight or heterosexual. Yet, most of us assume that neither of those three
"did it" at all. Their orientation was heterosexual; there was
no behavior. The two things are different, see?
But
when it comes to gays, most heterosexuals (and all too many homosexuals) define
us by what they suppose we do. Straights, heterosexuals, are defined by
what they are; gays, homosexuals, by what, supposedly, we do. The
truth is, though, that the sexual orientation
of every person is defined by what that person is, not necessarily by
what he or she does or does not do.
The
vast majority of people are naturally heterosexually oriented, a significant
minority are homosexually oriented, and a tinier minority are possibly
bisexually oriented. That is the way they are born. But, for any of a number of reasons,
men and women who are naturally homosexual may learn to behave heterosexually;
and there are some who are naturally heterosexual who behave homosexually.
Their natural orientation doesn't change, though their behavior
may.
People
back in what we tend to think of as the Dark Ages of sexual understanding
nevertheles seemed to grasp this distinction easily. Before the Pill and
HIV/AIDS, it was pretty common for men to seek sexual "relief" from
other, usually effeminate, men rather than risk "doing it" with a
"bad" girl or if a willing female wasn't available at the time (this was, and to some extent, still is, a pretty common scenario in jails and prisons).
Neither of the men engaged in such conduct considered the "top," the
"man," to be gay; he was straight, but for whatever reason did his “man
thing” with another male (I know there’ll be many who’ll dispute this
contention, but I’m speaking from experience,
not just from what I’ve read or been told). That attitude changed abruptly in
the 1970s, to the point that --- again, in my opinion, based on my observation
and experience --- the Viet Nam vet generation is, probably, the most anti-gay
one of all. With the development of the Pill and because of fear of contracting
the “gay disease,” HIV/AIDS, straight men no longer chose to be with other men
for sex; only homosexually-oriented men did such a thing. The distinction
between sexual orientation and sexual behavior all but disappeared.
And
that has been psychologically devasting for a host of young straight men. Many
of them, because of substance abuse, incarceration, dysfunctional family
backgrounds, financial need, or whatever, have engaged in homosexual behavior
--- and since, now, there is little or no distinction made between sexual
orientation and sexual behavior, they have taken the homosexual behavior in which they’ve engaged to
mean that their orientation is
homosexual, that they are gay. And, this erroneous self-label has led to all
kinds of deep psychological problems, and even to violent and deadly actions. That’s
why I find my friend’s statement to be deceptively innocuous. Those subtly
mistaken attitudes can have deadly consequences.
The
final thing we should consider, though, but haven’t touched on so far, is
Lifestyle. Just as there is no one “heterosexual lifestyle,” there is no
equivalent “homosexual lifestyle.” Let’s recap, and I’ll explain:
First,
one’s sexual orientation is naturally or genetically encoded; it isn’t a
“preference,” nor does it change.
Secondly,
one’s sexual behavior, unlike one’s sexual orientation, may involve preference.
One may prefer oral or anal or
vaginal sex, being “top” or “bottom,” or “pitching” or “catching.” Within the
person’s orientation, his or her
preferred behavior may, in fact,
change.
Thirdly,
one’s sexual lifestyle probably does involve choice. No matter what one’s orientation
or preferred behaviors may be, one
may choose his or her sexual lifestyle.
One’s lifestyle may range anywhere from celibacy, through monogamy, through
serial liaisons, through to group sex, promiscuity, or whatever. So, a person
will have a natural sexual orientation,
preferred sexual behaviors,
and a chosen sexual lifestyle.
These three things are not at all the same, and may not even be in harmony with
each other; but confusing the three things, or using the terms interchangeably,
is not only inaccurate, but can be psychologically troubling, and downright dangerous.
For
the record, if in some pre-existent state I were given the choice as to how I’d come into human life, with all the
alternatives laid out before me, and knowing what I know now, I --- unlike most
people I know, gay or straight --- would choose to come into human life
exactly as I am now: Male, black, and gay. But, of course, I am not given that
choice; I just thank God that I am, in fact, male, black, gay, and now ---
considering the alternative --- old.
BTW, I am 72 now.
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